Acceptance!
It is said acceptance is the wise thing to do. There is also a famous serenity prayer.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
It's over 20 months now. In less than 4 months Sripathi will be two. Well if i want to be celebrating his second birthday i have less than 4 months to accept a lot of things and to 'keep calm and carry on'. In less than four months i have to accept that Sripathi may never be able to sit, may never be able to walk and probably may never be able to talk.
Accepting a special child gets to be okay until i see a neighbor's child running around and playing. Sometimes i think if God has punished me for some grave sin i committed in this life or past. But then again how could a God be so cruel by depriving a child of his childhood as a way to punishment? That is not the kind of God i want to pray to and depend on. God is supposed to be compassionate, to love all beyond all faults. I guess things just happen, well bad things just happen and i still want to believe that God is still on my side.
I remember this great article published on the 'Complex child' by Susan Agrawal Acceptance is a Rollercoaster. i need to revise this for sure!
Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass but learning to dance in the rain!
